About the fact that I unintentionally raised my sister to be a cripple

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This is probably what it feels like after breathing heavily.

I held my head on the big bed, looked up at the sky outside the window, looked at the darkening clouds on the horizon, and then began to think about what the so-called life is.

This is probably how your brain wakes up after the incident.

Sakakibara closed his eyes and smelled the fragrance of sunflowers brought by the breeze of the manor outside the window.

He doesn't want to think about what life is, because he has figured out what he needs as early as a child, which is to have someone who loves him, and then live happily every day.

Sakakibara opened his eyes again. He turned around and looked at Amami Kuruuri, who was sleeping next to him with his bare shoulders.

See her sleeping face.

His face smiled unconsciously

Of course, there is also a hint of embarrassment because of what just happened.

Reaching out and pulling the quilt to her shoulders, Sakakihara turned to the left, only to realize that Qi Qi was no longer here.

Where did July go?

Seeing the empty quilt on the left side, Sakakihara grabbed the phone in the dark under the moonlight.

The screen suddenly lit up, and Sakakibara was stimulated by the bright light and subconsciously closed his eyes.

He looked at the time carefully and saw that it was already three o'clock in the morning.

It turned out that I had already slept.

But where did July go?

It's three o'clock in the morning.

Maybe she just went to drink water, maybe she went to the toilet

But for some reason, when he saw the empty space on the left, he felt that his heart felt a little lonely this night.

Sakakibara stood up, put on his pants, and walked out of the largest bedroom in the manor.

In a large villa like this, the corridors are usually illuminated at night.

Raku Sakakibara walked to the nearest restroom and knocked on the door. After waiting for a few seconds and no response, he realized that Nanami Nanami was not here.

Since she wasn't in the bathroom, where was she?

Sakakibara looked back at the spacious mansion, walked along the spiral staircase to the second floor and walked to the living room.

He walked all the way out of the gate and looked for the courtyard. Finally, under an old tree, he saw the back of a girl standing in a field of sunflowers in the distance.

She was wearing a white bathrobe, bathing in the moonlight, and the evening breeze was blowing the patches of sunflowers in front of her.

Because it was approaching midnight and the temperature this year was higher than in previous years, there was already a crisp chirping of cicadas in the wild at this time.

Sakakihara looked at the hazy back of July in the distance

She was looking into the distance, her flaxen hair floating in the night.

Her eyes looked extremely hazy in the moonlit night

Raku Sakakibara crossed the path in the sunflower field and walked towards her.

"Why are you here in July?"

"Come out and get some air." Tianhai Qimingyue looked away from the invisible shadow of Mount Fuji in the distance, and the lake outside the sunflower field was sparkling.

She closed her eyes quietly and had a steady beauty on her face.

"Are you not used to it? I think you should rest now." Sakakibara's eyes fell directly on her beautiful facial features. Just looking at her face now, he couldn't imagine how she looked in bed just now.

"Why did brother come out again?" Tianhai Qimingyue opened her eyes and asked, her sky-blue eyes shining with moonlight.

"Come out to find you."

"Then why did you come out to find me?"

"When I saw you weren't here, I naturally came out to look for you."

Tianhai Qimingyue looked at his face for a long time, and found that he was only wearing pajamas, so he came out to look for her at three in the morning.

"Although I say some things to you too much and you may find them annoying, I still want to say thank you."

Sakakibara felt strange. He approached her and took her hand, "Why are you so alienated all of a sudden? Wasn't it quite enthusiastic before? Did I go too far before?"

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Tianhai Qimingyue shook her head in silence, and she turned to ask another question, "If I suddenly disappeared one day like tonight, would you still come to me like today?"

"Qiyue, what are you talking about?" Sakakibara didn't understand the meaning of her question for a while.

Tianhai Qimingyue hugged his left arm with his right hand and continued to ask him: "Will you?"

"Definitely." Sakakihara answered while also observing Qiyue, wondering why she suddenly became like this after sleeping for a while.

At first he didn't understand it at all.

But when she saw the thin yukata on Qiyue's body and her bare shoulders, she almost guessed her inner thoughts.

That’s right, I felt comfortable when I visited before. After finishing the work, I fell asleep

He actually forgot that this time it was originally for Qiyue to fulfill the agreement. Qiyue was actually asking for her position in his heart with a very, very serious mood.

Although Qi Qi seemed to be having a lot of fun when Liuli was there.

But what if Liuli is not here? Does this represent this first experience, a kind of contract?

Thinking of this, Sakakihara Raku also knew what he should do.

"Qiyue, come here quickly." Sakakibara stretched out his hand to her and motioned her to lean against his shoulder.

"What? Still want to do it?"

"of course not."

Sakakihara was pleased to see that she didn't resist much, so he pulled her to him, then stretched out his hands and hugged her.

Tianhai Qimingyue's two hands were pressed against his heart, and her cheek was pressed against his. The girl did not expect that he would do this suddenly.

"July." Sakakibara closed his eyes, and while holding her, he called out the name of the girl in his arms.

"You call me that. Do you want to be coquettish?" Tianhai Qi Mingyue didn't understand his thoughts, but she did not refuse his hug. On the contrary, because of his hug, her body seemed to feel much warmer in the dark night.

"You must have troubles in July, right? That's why you came here in the middle of the night. How about talking to me?"

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"Talk to me, Qi Qi, I will listen to you carefully."

I will listen to you carefully

A simple sentence, but it made Tianhai Qimingyue's thoughts ripple.

Think about it carefully, in more than ten years, how many people have been willing to calm down and listen to themselves?

She even knew that it was useless to express her annoyance to the outside world, as it would only lead to incomprehension from others.

But now, there is really such a person who is willing to listen to me talk about my troubles and is willing to help me solve my troubles.

In fact, what moved my heart was not only that he was willing to listen, but also that he understood his own feelings.

"Originally, I thought that handing over my first time would make me feel more at ease. But it turned out that my previous idea was wrong. Now I am thinking, if one day, I no longer have the things you pursue, the things you love, What will happen to you at that time?"

Sakakihara heard Qiyue in her arms telling herself such words with her eyes closed.

Completely understanding her current state.

"You are still very insecure in July."

"Perhaps so. After all, for more than ten years, I was basically walking alone on a path that I didn't even know had any hope."

Sakakibara hugged her tighter. He put Qiyue's cheek against his neck, letting her completely rely on his arms. "What Qiyue is actually most afraid of is being abandoned, right?"

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Not hearing Qi Qi's answer, Sakakihara said gently to the petite girl in his arms:

"Because July when you were a child was the July who cried and ran to the mountains alone to ask your mother to come to you. You injured your feet and got wet, and then you sat silently at the bus stop in the countryside. In fact, the inferior mother has always been expecting her to come to you in July, right?"

"." Tianhai Qi Mingyue listened to his gentle voice, hugged his neck, closed her eyes and said nothing.

"I remember the way you looked up at me in July. There was no sparkle in your eyes. You just looked at me blankly. At that time, July sat alone in the rain for a day. In fact, little July I also know that I have been abandoned by my mother. But Xiao Qiyue is still willing to believe that her mother is looking for me. However, when I carry you to the villa area and you see your mother still teaching your sister the piano, you have to completely face the reality.

"This is the first time. Later, Xiao Qiyue met me. I gave you food, took you to play, and told you stories and told you little secrets in the mountains. For example, for the first time, you learned about the methods used to start a fire. The wind burns it, for example, letting you know that some fruits in the mountains are inedible, and also telling you where you can go and where you can't go.

"Actually, I am equivalent to your second 'mother'. I take the initiative to take you to see the beauty of this world.

"In your eyes in July, I am very important. But in fact, to me, you are just a playmate I had when I was a child, so I give you things and cook you delicious food, so you will remember it for so long. .However, later on, there was no contact from me anymore. You came from Tokyo. A little girl came all the way to see me, but she didn’t see anything.

"This is the second abandonment.

"Now, a year ago, you confessed your love to me, but I rejected you countless times. I forgot the agreement between us, the promise of 'you learn knowledge, and I will tell you stories'. I even rushed you left

"This is the third abandonment"

After saying these words, Sakakihara Raku also felt as if he had returned to the past. He gently held Qiyue in his arms and felt the temperature of her cheeks.

"Qiyue, no matter how she changes, her true heart is always the little Qiyue waiting for her mother at the bus stop. She doesn't want to be abandoned. She wants to gain solid support and absolute trust. For this reason, she Willing to do anything, no matter what.”

Sakakibara stopped, opened his eyes, and looked at Amami Nanamigetsu, who was leaning on his shoulder and neck with eyes closed in his arms.

Her mouth moved slightly:

"The story is very well told."

She opened Mingrun's beautiful eyes and looked at Sakakihara Raku's face above:

"But now that I have given you my most important thing, and you have got me, will it still be the same as before? People always like the new and hate the old, just like reading a book, absorbing emotions from a book, But when these emotions end and the story ends, you have to move on to the next story.”

"July."

"Yeah, I'm listening."

"I don't know about other people, but I never think that if I have the first time with you in July, even if I get you completely, in the future, in the future, countless days will still be waiting for us, every day The money, rice, oil and salt in the house, the various pressures on your foundation and family. Even in life, we can also find the fun of bickering in a daily relationship. You know me well in July, right? Do you know what I like best? "

"Care, whether others care about you or you care about others."

"Life can never be smooth sailing, and there will always be obstacles that are difficult to overcome. If you suddenly disappeared and left in July, what should I do? There are countless women in this world, but I can meet only seven Yue, there is only you. The only one I can meet in July who can understand me and support me is you. If you are gone, I will be really sad and my heart will become empty, because of that naughty Qi Yue disappeared, and Qiyue, who was sometimes as cold as ice but actually cared about herself, also disappeared.

"July's first time with me today is not the end, but a new beginning. No matter what, I also want to have your care in July. It's no longer there. Where can I find you who understand me so well?" Me, the person who helps me secretly and takes care of my emotions?

"So, Xiao Qiyue, please be sure, be sure, be at ease, I'm still waiting to officially marry you in the future, and then have a child with you.

"Don't you look forward to your children in July? You will definitely not treat her like your mother. You will definitely show infinite love and care for your own children and watch her grow up happily. Holding her hand, each one slowly grew up."

One sentence.

Every word that was said leisurely was heard by the seven bright moons in the sky and the sea.

"One thousand one hundred and thirty-eight."

"What one thousand one hundred and thirty-eight?"

"I will always remember these one thousand one hundred and thirty-eight words you said to me."

Sakakihara laughed, hugged her tighter, and pressed his face closer to hers:

"How boring are you in July? You still count the number of words I speak?"

Tianhai Qimingyue put her hands on his heart, looked at him seriously and said, "Not everyone has the patience to say such a long list of words, right? If it were an ordinary person, most of them would choose just a few words of comfort instead of like You tell me a long story like this, tell me what you really think in your heart, and then give me what I really want. Only a fool like you can do this, and only you can say this to me, right?"

"Well, that seems to be the case. After all, you don't have many friends in Qiyue. Although Liuli understands you, she can't say these words."

Seeing how serious she was, Sakakihara Raku's sky-blue eyes seemed to be shining brightly under the moonlight.

Is this considered touching?

Sakakihara was not sure, but he knew that Qiyue absolutely liked what he said to her, so he continued to smile at her delicate little face and said:

"Then why don't you cherish me more in Qiyue? Don't say anything about disappearing suddenly. Isn't little Qiyue the little girl who will come to me no matter what?"

"Feel sorry."

"Okay, okay," Sakakihara hugged her again, feeling more and more that Qiyue was actually a petite girl, not some smart young lady or a top student, "Stop apologizing. Rather than apologizing, I like it better when you make some funny jokes to me in Qiyue. Every time you get serious in Qiyue, I feel distressed, so actually I was quite happy just now."

"I like you."

"I know." Sakakihara smiled happily in the sunflower field.

"I like you very much."

"You don't have to be so straightforward, I know everything."

"It's precisely because I like you that I specially invited you here today."

"Okay, okay," Raku Sakakihara patted her back, feeling the warmth of her in his arms, comforting her, "and wasn't July very happy before? The July before was completely different from the July now. It’s different, which is kind of weird.”

Tianhai Qimingyue replied on his chest: "People always have serious and non-serious sides, and now it is my serious side."

"When we were in the house just now, did that mean we weren't serious?"

"That's right."

".I said to you in July, you think the first time is so important, why don't you take it seriously?"

"Because I have to consider my sister. It's hard to be serious when my sister is around."

Well, this is actually his own fault. Liuli had half of his wishes when he stayed.

Although there is no formal and Liuli, it is almost the same

"Here it is, now."

The white yukata suddenly fell next to the girl's slender feet.

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Sakakibara Raku was stunned when he saw Nanami Nanami's eyes looking over him, and when he saw that body with hanging hair and a body that was whiter and more beautiful than the moonlight. He looked around, and saw only sunflowers that were taller than a person. The lawn was cooled by the night breeze.

"Wait, now? Here?! Now we have to-- By the way, are you okay in July?"

"I'm okay. If my sister is here, it will affect my thoughts, so here, one-on-one, take it seriously."

Sakakibara slapped his forehead and said quickly: "I have no objection to you coming again between now and July, but wouldn't the place be too good?"

By this time it was already dark, and the moon was appearing and disappearing.

On the side of the sea of ​​sunflowers is a lake with a wooden bridge in the middle, and behind it is a lawn on a high ground.

"Don't like outside?"

"That's not true."

"Then hurry up."

Tianhai Qimingyue placed her hands on the wooden guardrail beside the flower field, and her silky flaxen hair flowed down as she bent down.

Sakakibara looked at her backline lit up by the moonlight, and saw her clear eyes when she turned her head.

The wind blowing across the lake took away some of the hot breath.

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The wooden fence in the flower field, the wooden bridge in the lake, the trees beside the road, the lawn with leaves turned white by the wind

These images lingered in the mind of Sakakihara Raku, who was breathing heavily.

Now he just wants to lie down on the lawn and look at the moon half covered by clouds.

His mind was empty again.

The moonlight illuminated the endless lawn, and the girl's swaying figure reflected the flower fields and the sparkling lake. Her eyes were gentle like water, but hazy like the moon. The moment she closed her eyes, Sakakihara Le could only feel that her tight pink and white toes, stained with a bit of earthy fragrance, were also extremely beautiful and sublime.

"Go back to sleep." Sakakibara panted while lying on the lawn.

"This time, it's not bad." Tianhai Qimingyue nestled in his arms, and with her soft hands, she lifted up the long hair beside her ears, exuding a sweet fragrance.

Nanamigyue didn't smile, but Sakakibara laughed when he saw her beautiful face directly above him, blocking his sight and blocking the moon.

He reached out and slapped his butt twice.

"I wonder who was screaming so loudly just now?"

"It was great just now, but now I just want to say 'not bad'."

"I just want to be tough, right?" Sakakihara couldn't help but smile, and yawned loudly, "Ha~~~ But I just want to sleep now."

"You still missed me one more time."

Upon hearing this, Sakakibara clasped his hands together and quickly begged the girl who sat upright again: "Auntie! Please let me go back to sleep. In one night, everyone will be dead."

Tianhai Qimingyue's beautiful face smiled slightly: "But there is still one more time left."

"Can--"

"Shh~ We haven't been to the lake beside the road yet. There is a small wooden platform for fishing there, which can face the entire lake."

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"What's wrong?" Tianhai Qimingyue smiled.

"How was it on the road?"

"This is it"

"July~~"

"also."