About the fact that I unintentionally raised my sister to be a cripple

"Two minutes and 50 seconds, that's awesome, Sakakibara."

"It's okay. Is there nothing going on next?" Sakakihara looked towards the distance of the playground. At this time, her aunt had disappeared.

"It's gone for now."

"Okay, I'll buy a bottle of water."

"OK."

Sakakihara Raku said hello to Nishijima Oki who was counting the scores, and started walking towards the atrium. In front of the shoe-changing area of ​​the teaching building, he saw Aunt Bertha and Principal Tachibana in suits and ties, seemingly talking about something.

Auntie and Principal Ju were already related. Jiu Liuli and Qi Mingyue privately called the principal uncle.

"Just looking for the principal? No, that shouldn't be the case."

Sakakihara continued to remain on the sidelines, secretly observing their conversation from a distance.

You can see that Principal Tachibana looked a little embarrassed in front of his sister, but he still nodded.

The aunt and uncle are now in a state of opposition. As the uncle of two little nieces, Tachibana Kiyohara is caught between the sister and the brother-in-law. It seems that it is quite difficult.

After Mrs. Bertha said a few words to him, Principal Orange left and entered the teaching building.

In less than five minutes, Raku Sakakibara saw Principal Tachibana and Amami Kuruuri walking down from the teaching building. Jiu Liuli followed with her face lowered the whole time, looking like she was not in a good mood.

This is different from what Sakakihara Raku has seen these past few days.

Although Jiuliuli avoided her these days and would not answer her questions with a smile when she met her, she always kept smiling towards herself, which made her seem to be in a good mood.

nowadays.

what happened?

Sakakihara Raku's eyes have been focused on Aunt Bertha in front of her. Her long flaxen hair, beautiful profile that looks like the one in the painting, confident mouth corners and sky-blue eyes are all quite familiar.

More or less, there are shadows of Qimingyue and Jiuliuli.

Principal Orange brought Jiuliuli to Aunt Bertha. Aunt Bertha smiled and nodded at him, and then Principal Orange left.

Facing her daughter, Aunt Bertha showed her gentle and beautiful smile.

The distance was quite far, and Sakakibara couldn't hear clearly what they were communicating, but Jiu Liuli lowered her head in front of her mother the whole time.

Aunt Bertha said a few words to Jiuliuli and guided her towards the back garden of the school.

Sakakibara followed quietly.

"Are you still practicing at school recently?"

Hiding behind the bushes, Sakakihara Raku heard these words Bertha Hekeya said to her daughter by the lake in the back garden.

"No. I've been quite busy recently."

Sakakihara looked through the leaves of the bushes and could only see two people standing by the artificial lake. The tall buildings in the distance are reflected in the school's lake.

"Busy? So, what are you busy with? I remember I was contacting you by email recently. You have been practicing piano for almost thirteen years. What else is more important than this."

"." Tianhai Jiuliuli was silent for a moment beside her mother, and then replied, "Things about the Kyudo club, things in the class, I still have homework, and I have to cook in the morning."

"Liu Li, you have to know how talented Qiu and Qiyue are at the piano. I won't talk about Qiyue because of what happened before, and Liuli, your talent is even higher than hers. I know you are so talented. The weight of ability?"

"I know. Mom has said it many times."

Tianhai Jiuliuli's voice seemed very weak when she answered her mother's words.

"You leave the duties of squad leader to Qi Qi. Just buy two rice balls for breakfast and cancel the club. There is no need for such things."

Tianhai Jiuliuli looked up almost instantly and explained to her mother: "But, that one is not my mother, you——"

"Are you still obsessed with the past?"

"But mom, you clearly told me before -"

"Jiu Liuli, memory is extremely ambiguous. When you think back to yourself eight or nine years ago, don't you just feel very childish?"

"Do you really want to retreat?"

"Return."

Bertha Hekeya held her forehead in trouble and sighed. It could be heard in her tone that she was trying to be as calm as possible.

"Liu Li, it's really not necessary. Since you can't go abroad and focus all your energy on the piano, you have to spend more time in China now. You know what I'm worried about, Chopin once every five years The International Piano Competition is not far away. If you miss this time, you will have to wait until the next five years, and the next five years. How much time will be wasted?"

"I, I know"

"Because of Maodian, I can't see you often, and the guidance I can give you is limited. Practice more, and nothing else is important. Do you understand?"

"I understand, I will do as mom says."

Sakakibara couldn't stand listening to this. He knew that his aunt valued Jiu Liuli's piano talent very much, otherwise his aunt would not have mentioned this matter to Jiu Liuli many times after the divorce.

But what does this mean?

As a "daughter", does Jiuliuli only have a "piano talent" value to her aunt?

"As long as you understand. Do you have any questions?"

"there is none left"

"Okay, you go back," Bertha Heikeya glanced at the women's watch on her wrist, "I still have work to do, so this is a temporary meeting with you. If I hadn't told your uncle , I guess Maodian called me again, okay, you can go back."

"Um"

Sakakibara looked up again and looked through the bushes at Kuruuri, who was bowing her head next to her mother. She was usually gentle and generous, almost a perfect person. But now, she is just a little girl bowing her head next to her mother.

Have you considered your daughter's thoughts on this matter?

Jiuliuli always wanted to say something to her mother but didn't dare to say anything.

Sakakibara inexplicably read her inner pain from this disappointed expression.

This feeling had nothing to do with what Liuli had done to him, but the sigh that arose from the nature of the matter after seeing Liuli being used by her mother in this way.

Qi Mingyue said that her sister was very sad the day her mother left by plane.

Jiuliuli has always regarded her mother as very important, because to her, her mother has always been the window to her soul. She would take her out when she was very young, take her out to eat and see the outside world. .

After that, he would even run to his father's study in the middle of the night, look through the window in the direction where his mother often came in, and keep waiting, hoping that she would come to visit him.

If we trace Liuli's lack of love and wanting to do good for others to the root of her feelings, we can actually pin this mistake on her mother who has been taking advantage of her.

Bertha Hekeya watched Jiu Liuli return to the teaching building and then turned around.

However, when she shifted her gaze to the other side, she saw a person.

A faint smile suddenly appeared on her face, her head tilted slightly, and her blue earlobes shone:

"It's Xiaole, aren't you in class now?"

"Good afternoon, Auntie. We are currently in class, but my period happens to be a physical education class."

"Oh, so you went out for a walk after warming up?"

"A walk?" Sakakibara shook his head, "It's not a walk, Auntie, I just saw you enter the school on the playground. I was very curious about your purpose and followed you here."

"You mean, stalking?" Bertha Hekeya half-smiled.

"Yes."

"Why are you following me?"

"As I said just now, I am curious about your purpose, but the answer is similar to what I thought. You are indeed here to find Jiuliuli."

Bertha Hekeya speculated with great interest the purpose of his appearance in front of her, "I came here just to let Jiu Liuli keep practicing the piano. Unexpectedly, the matter at the airport was arranged by that girl in Qiyue. At present, I am not You may have taken Jiuliuli abroad, from this point of view, you can rest assured."

Bertha Hekeya's tone was very gentle. But it was this gentleness that made Sakakibara feel angry.

"Mrs. Bertha, I want to know what kind of existence Jiuliuli is to you?"

When Sakakibara asked this question solemnly, Bertha Hekeya hesitated slightly.

She guessed the purpose of Sakakibara coming to her.

His expression quickly returned to normal.

"Beloved daughter." Bertha Hekeya's answer was simple.

"Madam, do you know your daughter's feelings for you?"

"Let me think about reluctance, dependence, and the feelings built by the memories of the past together. Let's call this part mother-daughter love."

Bertha Hekeya's tone was very frivolous, as if she was talking about a very ordinary thing.

"Then what did you do with this feeling?"

Bertha Hekeya laughed gently: "You kid is really funny, you actually asked me this question. But I can tell you clearly, I am using this part of my feelings to let Jiuliuli do what I expect. direction to move closer.”

"You are too selfish." Sakakibara said in a normal tone.

Bertha Hekeya smiled even more: "Yes, I am very selfish, but I don't think there is anything wrong with it. At least Jiuliuli can get the happiness she wants by my side."

"You're just taking advantage."

Bertha Hekeya turned around, faced the mirror-flat lake, shook her head and said: "Xiao Le, why should you care about using or not using it? Isn't mutual benefit correct? If you are happy, I am happy too. Jiu Liuli wants to be close to her mother. And I wanted her to flourish in the piano world, and that turned out to be exactly the right thing.”

"You are just trying to satisfy your own selfish desires. Have you ever thought about what Jiuliuli wants for you? Raise an excellent daughter and add a beautiful footnote to your unfulfilled dream. Compared with mother, I think Mrs. You’re more like an agent.”

Even if Jiu Liuli did something wrong and he was still angry with her, things would come to an end.

What makes Sakakihara Raku feel angry is that the woman in front of her is holding her daughter hostage in the name of mother to accomplish something she doesn't want to accomplish. What does this count for? Is this considered a mother?

For her, Jiuliuli is just a tool, a tool to achieve the goals she needs.

The corners of Bertha Hekeya's mouth rose, and she had no reaction to his aggressive words. She was plain. Her tone of voice, which she took for granted, could only be described as the plainness that saw through everything, "Xiao Le, it seems that you still don't understand what I mean. Through these things, Jiuliuli gained her mother's closeness, and this is the happiness she needs."

"Even if this is all a false illusion?!"

Bertha Hekeya faced him again, crossed her shoulders with her hands, and then stretched out an arm and continued to say to Sakakibara: "It's not an illusion. Jiu Liuli got what she wanted. This is the fact."

"You keep telling the truth and don't care about your identity at all, right?"

"You want to say 'mother'? Xiaole, I think I have already said that to Jiuliuli, I am still her mother, no matter what my actions are."

"Mrs. Bertha, Jiu Liuli still doesn't know that you are no longer the mother she remembers, right? Ms. Bertha."

Bertha Hekeya's expression froze when she was told this.

Sakakibara Raku continued to refute: "In Kururi's view, her mother is the one who gives her care and love. Her mother's love for her and the warmth her mother brings her. Now when she was a child, Kururi was a caged bird, and Madam, for Kururi, They are the wings that take her out of that cage, and they are the windows to peek into the world. You are, at best, just a liar who uses your past self to deceive your daughter."

Bertha Hekeya also laughed, her shoulders swaying as she laughed. She stretched out her hand and lightly covered the corner of her mouth, and the jewelry in her left ear seemed to flash with her laughter.

"So, Xiaole, do you think I did something wrong?"

"Wrong, no doubt."

Bertha Hekeya raised her beautiful chin, and the single earring on the left side shone brightly under the reflection of the light on the lake, "Xiao Le, I don't deny what you said. It doesn't matter whether you call me a liar or selfish. Okay, it doesn’t matter if you are not worthy of being a mother. Your purpose is nothing more than to want me to stay less involved in Jiuliuli’s affairs, but if she loses me, do you know what this means?

"She will lose her goal and the happiness she wants. Even if this is my deception, this is the goal she needs. For her, whether it is the piano or the bow path, the cause is all because of me. She was just responding to my expectations. She lost me. What does she have? Who can give her anything? Maodian already owes her and Qiyue, and in the current situation, it is even more impossible to ask her to do anything!

"She is different from July. She doesn't have anything she wants. All she can do is spread her tenderness and let everyone feel how good she is, and then gain the feeling that she is needed.

"In the final analysis, Xiaole, you still don't understand Jiuliuli well enough."

Sakakihara Raku felt an indescribable depression in his heart, and a fire of ignorance was slowly rising in his heart.

He knew he was angry, and he tried his best to keep his voice from shaking.

"Mrs. Bertha, even if what you said is true, even if Jiuliuli needs you to give her a goal, as a mother, as a mother, don't you think you are going too far?!

"As a mother, is Jiuliuli just a tool to you?!"

Bertha Hekeya's expression was still calm, so calm that she seemed to be fully aware of her mistakes and able to continue to implement them:

"If my news is correct, you and Liuli are not on good terms at the moment, right? You even moved out on purpose. The kid Jiuliuli said it was his fault. As long as the kid Jiuliuli makes a mistake, he will definitely run to apologize. , and you haven't gone home yet, which proves that you haven't forgiven her yet. In this month, Jiuliuli should have apologized to you countless times?.Compared to me, aren't you hurting her too?

"As a 'persecutor', I can still give Jiuliuli a target and the sense of presence she needs.

"What can you give Liuli?"

What can I give Jiuliuli?

Bertha Hekeya's words were like a sharp blade, piercing straight into his chest.

Yes. Yes, what can I give Jiuliuli?

Aren't you still angry with her and hating her?

In the face of her sincere apology, she said such cruel words as "Don't pester me again."

The words were very serious and heartless, and Jiu Liuli cried because of it.

Qi Mingyue also said that her sister went home and cried alone for a long time.

But the next day, Sakakibara still saw Kuruuri with a smile on her face. She took out the lunch box she had made early and gave it to her with biscuits.

I was still angry at the time, and the first thing I thought about when I got the things Jiuliuli made was to throw her biscuits into the trash can.

Now that I think about it, hahaha, this is really a childish approach.

Sakakihara Raku was not only angry at Bertha Heikeya's unselfconscious attitude as a mother, but also at his own childishness in the past.

It can be said that I have let go of the previous things and can now calm down.

But facing Jiu Liuli, who wanted to sincerely apologize, he still said such heartless words to her as "Don't pester me again."

No wonder Jiuliuli immediately and decisively agreed when faced with her request to keep making bento.

Not only did she feel guilty that she had done something wrong, but she also felt that she was needed.

She couldn't stand her mother's behavior and took the initiative to point out the other party's mistakes. But in the final analysis, Bertha could still give Jiuliuli a goal, but she couldn't give her anything.

What on earth are you doing?

Bertha Hekeya's expression was gentle and she shook her head: "If there is nothing else to ask, I will leave first. I have no hostility towards you, Xiaole. I even understand what you are saying, but the reality is That's it, that kid Liuli is in need of love."

Very lacking in love.?

Indeed, it is no wonder that Jiuliuli, who has always been gentle and generous, said thank you to herself at the beginning for cooking for her.

No wonder Jiuliuli always wanted to help herself and didn't want to overwork herself.

No wonder Jiuliuli works hard to take care of herself when she is sick.

No wonder Jiu Liuli would cast a different look when she let A Ling act like a baby.

No wonder he went to buy a set of clothes for himself after dating him and put them on himself.

In the final analysis, Jiuliuli lacks love and her own sense of existence.

That's why she thinks about everyone, and the only sister who understands her.

and therefore made a mistake

Sakakihara Raku became complicated again. She made a mistake, why should he care about her mood?

Why did you stand up for her and refute your aunt after you couldn't bear to hear what she said?

Jiuliuli felt uncomfortable, wasn't it exactly what she wanted to see?

No, no, absolutely not.

cheat

Sakakihara Raku seemed to be cheerful and figured it out.

Yes, I have been deceiving myself.

Say you don't care, just face it calmly.

He said that he would never forgive Jiu Liuli and just live his own life.

This is completely contrary to my own heart.

In fact, he has always been escaping, even when Kiyosawa Otoye suggested that he take the initiative to face Jiu Liuli, he was evading.

The real confrontation should be to face one's own heart.

Bullying others, taking advantage of others, and making others uncomfortable are never things that I want to see.

"Auntie," Sakakibara calmly raised his head after thinking about everything and looked at Bertha Hekeya again, "I will not admit what you did."

"Oh? Then what do you want to do? Our relationship is getting closer now. Let me think about how to say that word, by the way, accomplice."

"Auntie, we are completely different from the starting point. I am deceiving myself, and you are deceiving others, and you are still using your own daughter. No matter from which point of view, we are far from being accomplices."

"As a result, we're all doing the same thing."

“I always believe that the process is more important than the result.”

"Without results, the process is dispensable. Only results can tell the story."

Sakakihara smiled with relief: "I am not denying consequentialism, and I have no intention of correcting your ideas. I think I have gained enough from you, thank you."

"What?"

Bertha Hekeya watched with her own eyes as he bowed slightly to her and turned around to leave.

"You have gained the most from me. What do you mean?"

Raku Sakakihara turned around and left the artificial lake in the back garden, and Bertha Hekeya also turned around and walked towards the school gate a few seconds later.

Stepping on the cobblestone road of the Islamic teaching building, Sakakibara carefully recalled the conversation he had just had with his aunt. It was no longer meaningful to correct her right or wrong. What was important now was how to make Jiuriuli realize her aunt's true thoughts.

It would be uncomfortable for anyone if the mother who was respected and loved said that she was just a tool to be used.

So how can Jiuliuli recognize and accept this calmly?

While Sakakihara was thinking about it, he suddenly stopped.

He put down the hand holding his chin and looked in surprise at a girl squatting behind a shrub and flower bed with her legs in her arms.

The girl in Western-style school uniform leaned against the flower bed, her head lowered, her flaxen hair hanging down her back, her face looking indescribably haggard and sad.

Sakakihara subconsciously opened his mouth and shouted her name:

"Nine Glaze"